Dejected
tears of frustrations.
i do not know how to cope with the oncoming assignments with my worries and stuff. i think there're 4 of them right now; PM, SA, UD, I&E. the worst would be event management under I&E. on Monday, lyehong yipeng and me stayed back until 4 to discuss about our event. we decided on Dragondance because her dad specialises in that. we had no problems with funds and stuff already and she headed home telling her dad about our discussion. she sms-ed me much later saying that we actually overlooked alot of stuff. she ranted non-stop the whole of Tues, which in-fact was explaining what her dad said. thank god unun protected my ears x: jk haha. yaa then we're at a lost so she decided to ask the group to meet her dad and talk about it?.. ?_? i don't know la huh but i think things are getting exaggerating. i shan't elaborate and our group have to go to hougang later where she lives for the discussion F_F .. and, it was actually supposed to be at ang moh kio? because of her dad feeling tt we're unsincere and that he shouldn't be the one accomodating to us or should i say.. giving in to us just because he would be helping us alot...? we had the change of venue. ... . . . i was quite frustrated but... do i seem to have a choice you tell me zz. i would just make do with it and hopefully we would be able to complete our 3 documents and our presentation for tomorrow by tonight. i'm now only quite worried about my way home all the way from an alienic place, hougang ._.
talking about my way home, i would like to talk about what happened to my best friend adada. to my utmost horror, she got robbed off her hp in the lift of her block at 5pm.. . . . thankfully she wasn't hurt and she had to bid goodbye to her n6610i. she still feels traumatised and stuff. poor girl. and i feel paranoid too.
for your own safety, please do not hold yr hp on-hand. always keep it inside your bag or pocket and do not take e lift with strangers. in any case, try to run and scream.
i am seriously feeling very dejected right now. frankly speaking, i joined ngee ann and my current course because of laptop. i wanted one badly. but now, i regret like fuck ok? and to my 2nd utmost horror, i've been living in my own perspection: having a diploma guarantees you a high % of getting any job you want.
i was so so, so so wrong. ..so what? so what if you have a diploma? it would only be useful if it's related to the worktype you're interested in. ..... yes, exactly. and yet i do not know. 2years back, i went to poly because i want to get a diploma for the sake of getting one. and? i'm suffering now. with a laptop as burden. wastage of time, money. i paid all the fees myself you know? by the time i'm out of poly my bank had already been sucked dry. my earnings from red packets and stuff.
sad? yes. i'm awfully sad. dejection for several days alr. if i have a chance, i would quit and go study smth i like. i love drawing, makeup and coooking (tho i suck at it, or should i say i know nuts abt it). and what about my mum? i think she would be depressed to know of what i'm thinking and feeling now... i'm soo so sorry mama.
i do hope i can just tahan everything and graduate. i cry now and then when i think of it. would be better off dead.. but there're so many things which i haven't do . .
i'm lost. you're right, unun. i am.. lost.
i do not know how to cope with the oncoming assignments with my worries and stuff. i think there're 4 of them right now; PM, SA, UD, I&E. the worst would be event management under I&E. on Monday, lyehong yipeng and me stayed back until 4 to discuss about our event. we decided on Dragondance because her dad specialises in that. we had no problems with funds and stuff already and she headed home telling her dad about our discussion. she sms-ed me much later saying that we actually overlooked alot of stuff. she ranted non-stop the whole of Tues, which in-fact was explaining what her dad said. thank god unun protected my ears x: jk haha. yaa then we're at a lost so she decided to ask the group to meet her dad and talk about it?.. ?_? i don't know la huh but i think things are getting exaggerating. i shan't elaborate and our group have to go to hougang later where she lives for the discussion F_F .. and, it was actually supposed to be at ang moh kio? because of her dad feeling tt we're unsincere and that he shouldn't be the one accomodating to us or should i say.. giving in to us just because he would be helping us alot...? we had the change of venue. ... . . . i was quite frustrated but... do i seem to have a choice you tell me zz. i would just make do with it and hopefully we would be able to complete our 3 documents and our presentation for tomorrow by tonight. i'm now only quite worried about my way home all the way from an alienic place, hougang ._.
talking about my way home, i would like to talk about what happened to my best friend adada. to my utmost horror, she got robbed off her hp in the lift of her block at 5pm.. . . . thankfully she wasn't hurt and she had to bid goodbye to her n6610i. she still feels traumatised and stuff. poor girl. and i feel paranoid too.
for your own safety, please do not hold yr hp on-hand. always keep it inside your bag or pocket and do not take e lift with strangers. in any case, try to run and scream.
i am seriously feeling very dejected right now. frankly speaking, i joined ngee ann and my current course because of laptop. i wanted one badly. but now, i regret like fuck ok? and to my 2nd utmost horror, i've been living in my own perspection: having a diploma guarantees you a high % of getting any job you want.
i was so so, so so wrong. ..so what? so what if you have a diploma? it would only be useful if it's related to the worktype you're interested in. ..... yes, exactly. and yet i do not know. 2years back, i went to poly because i want to get a diploma for the sake of getting one. and? i'm suffering now. with a laptop as burden. wastage of time, money. i paid all the fees myself you know? by the time i'm out of poly my bank had already been sucked dry. my earnings from red packets and stuff.
sad? yes. i'm awfully sad. dejection for several days alr. if i have a chance, i would quit and go study smth i like. i love drawing, makeup and coooking (tho i suck at it, or should i say i know nuts abt it). and what about my mum? i think she would be depressed to know of what i'm thinking and feeling now... i'm soo so sorry mama.
i do hope i can just tahan everything and graduate. i cry now and then when i think of it. would be better off dead.. but there're so many things which i haven't do . .
i'm lost. you're right, unun. i am.. lost.